I was spared circumcision because my dads Jewish friend had the tip of his penis amputated accidentally. I shared this story earlier. My dad didn’t want that to accidentally happen to me.

However growing up I do recall the doctor forcing retraction and my penis head being bloody after that. He also used sanitizing wipes with rubbing alcohol on it which hurt quite a bit. My mom told me that being clean was necessary although she would’ve preferred me to be circumcised but my dad was an alpha male so she never went against him until after the divorce. She circumcised my brother but I escaped it.

My penis head is more skin tone in color and nothing like the purple/red penis heads that for instance my son has. So I wonder if the fact that I lost the “membrane” means that it’s just as bad as if I was circumcised in the first place. I mean the inner foreskin has the sensation. I have never felt any sensation on the outer foreskin it’s only the inner foreskin which they severed the membrane. So if you were forcefully retracted isn’t it the same as someone circumcised and then restored? I mean the only function of my foreskin is protection of the glans now because the forced retraction eliminated the membrane. I also still have the ridged band so there’s that.

This may be why I exhibit the same symptoms of cut men. For instance I focus more on orgasm than pleasurable sensations. I know many on here won’t pity me but what damage is caused by forceful retraction and constant cleaning of the inner foreskin when its supposed to be an interior organ?

Are there any studies on this?

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