I'm done, I'm literally planning on how to off myself, and I don't want anyone to stop me. This isn't what I signed up for, being molested as a little kid and all the other trauma shit I've been through, and here I am, 52, and I'm useless.

I miss my kids, Covid totally wreaked havoc on my mental health, I don't even know how any of you do this.

Yes, I have chronic pain, bulging discs, degenerative disc disease, and I am a throwaway.

Yes, I'm drunk, yes, I've considered rehab, but what for? To burden another person? Nope, I'm done, my family sucked, my mom left when I was 5 years old, my dad was an abusive fuck, and friends, believe me, I've tried, but I give up.

Heh, yeah, this is me sCrEaMiNg FoR hElP, though I've been asking for a long time. If I'm dead (yeah, been there too), I'll feel nothing once again, but I'm a chicken shit.

I hope some of you find relief, I'm done in so many ways. I hate my life.