Right? So what's new, I know a lot of us deal with shitty comments, having our pain minimized, and right now I've fucking had it. Last night is the 2nd time now that I've woken up and couldn't get back to sleep because of my back.

Apparently, I spend way too much time on my laptop. My entire family is on their fucking phones all day either playing games, msg'ing friends/family, and then there's Dad, watching endless fucking YouTube videos. He's the one that made the comment to my sis in law about "she spends too much time on the computer..." WHAT? He is staring at his phone almost all day watching gardening videos, pond videos, etc., that's his hobby, what makes him happy. What is wrong with me being on the computer? And I don't even remember what I said in conversation with regards to my back hurting but he responds with "my entire family deals with back pain...", yeah, but there you are in the yard all day, planting, watering, fertilizing, WALKING.

Doing dishes, is becoming a BS job but the one thing I can do because, standing.

We have a garden out back, picked spinach to make sis in law spinach dip, my back was fucking killing me, finished getting what I needed, begrudgingly walked back to the house because I didn't even want to walk, but needed to lay down and put my feet up. Picking spinach took me out.

Anyway, my story is everyone else's story here too, I'm venting as I know we all do, I am absolutely miserable mentally and emotionally and I feel like no matter how hard I try, nothing I do is good enough. I keep my mouth shut and try not to complain, though my brother???? About every other sentence out of his mouth is "my back/neck/legs", and finally last night as I'm cleaning the dishes he's standing in there and says, "ugh, my neck hurts", and I couldn't take it and just responded with "MY BACK, MY LEG, MY ANKLE, MY ENTIRE LEFT SIDE!!!!!!" And not another word out of my mouth and just kept cleaning up the kitchen.

So done, absolutely, fucking done. :(