Yesterday was my birthday, the only people to say anything was my parents and my boyfriend, I have no friends, I feel so alone, I had friends in high school but I was kind of a skid so most of those friends ended up in the drug life/street life in some way, or just aren’t around anymore due to depression or drugs. I turned 19 just before Covid and I missed out on my opportunity to come into myself and be social, my social anxiety is off the charts now and I’m terrified to leave the house most days, I know this isn’t really about pain but the pain definitely makes dealing with these emotions worse, I had to call into work today because I was up all night in pain, giving me plenty of time to overthink about not having any friends, my bf made me a card and brought me a cake, he definitely made it better, but I still feel so lonely…