A few things to start. I have Psoriatic Arthritis. I have pain 24/7. Some days are better then others. Most of my pain is in my feet. Almost positive I have planters fasciitis and it feels like I’m walking on glass bare foot. If I do not get my inflammation under control for my arthritis. It will basically erode my joints and I will eventually need replacement hips/knees. Maybe have something fused together.

I have been on a leave of absence for 2 months now and it’s getting down to the point where I have to decide if I’m going back to a job that basically cripples me or I quit and my wife and our financial situation becomes worse.

My doctor was finally able to see me and suggested SSI Disability but there is no guarantee I will get approved and the help I need, also I’m not seeing my rheumatologist because I just simply can’t afford to go see him and get blood work done. It’s about $350 for blood work without insurance. I’m so depressed and anxious. I don’t know what the right decision is and I never expected to get this ill. I was working 3 days a week recently and even that was too much. I could barely stand after work and walking was pretty much out of the question. It would seem easier to just quit and get a remote job but I have the hardest time finding work since what I chose for a career I’ve been doing for 15 years and also retail as well. It’s very hard to just find something new. Feeling very lost and I don’t know what the point of being alive is anymore. Sorry for the long all over the place message.