every fucking day something's wrong with my body. and I just have to put up with it, you can see my other post to know what that stuff is. I'm just supposed to wait it out and supposed to wait for it to go away and it always comes back and it leaves and it goes back. and my mom wont take me to the fucking doctor for some reason over it and I'm so fucking aggravated. it's like no matter how much I suffer - mentally, emotionally, physically it's never enough for her or anyone

in late 2022 right, my legs stopped working, I felt lightheaded, had tingling pins and needles pain all over my body, was overheated, etc. and then I passed out at school and was unable to walk the entire day. I had been having the pins and needles and throbbing pain for months prior and blood tests told me I had low vitamin d. then the doctor prescribed me some for a month or so with no follow up

I took the vitamins, took some otc ones and started taking multivatins when I felt better. since last year, I kept feeling better from that issue until I started getting flares up of leg and arm pain again that would come and go. then 2 weeks ago, I started having an intense throbbing pain in my left foot (which is STILL hurting me as I type this) and nothing happened for me to get help. the pain radiated to my other foot, legs and I got nauseous, lightheaded etc. yesterday morning and I collapsed on the floor again cause my legs stopped working. my mom said she'd take me to the clinic but they didnt call back so she said if I dont feel good by tomorrow afternoon (today) she'll take me to urgent care

it's almost 5 pm and I'm still in bed at home in excruciating pain. I feel like walking like a duck with a hunched over back isnt fucking normal for an 18 year old but maybe thats just me. I can't walk straight or without having to hold on to something, feeling like I'm gonna pass out within 10 seconds and having a waddling gait. all my bones ache, my muscles ache, I can't go to the fucking bathroom on my own, I'm having sharp pains in my chest, lower back, I'm getting little sleep cause of the pain and anxiety and my family's just observing me, or doing things for me or not paying any mind while I feel fucking terrible. my mom keeps giving me tea and a random vitamin pill but nothing is working. I always feel fucking terrible and I'm sick of not knowing what's wrong with me. whether it's this thing, my GI problems, gyno problems, skin problems or whatever else, there's always some shit I just have to put up with and have for years and I'm so exhausted and I wanna scream. Im 18 now having chronic pain since 11 and I just want to give up