I hate to post here with so much frustration but I am at such a low point today. I have prayed and reached out to family but ultimately I think I really need a lot of prayer because I feel so weak right now. I have been struggling with infertility for two years now. I am exhausted. I see so many people who are awful to kids or just not a fit parent in general get blessed with babies but I don't. It isn't my place to question and I know I'm supposed to submit to His will but it is so incredibly painful. I feel so angry. I feel like my husband has to suffer because of me. I feel like my family will miss out on growing because of me. I hate myself for it and it's weakening my faith even though that is wrong and I know it. I love God and want to submit and remain hopeful but I am tired and so tempted to just give up and go live for myself in sin. I won't , but I am fighting hard with the temptation. I want to be a good follower of Christ but I am struggling so hard with this and all the bad feelings and temptations that come with it. I am desperate. Please pray for me. I don't even have it in me to pray for myself right now, I feel like giving up.