I’m currently fighting cancer and I have been given a ‘life limiting’ prognosis. I’m struggling with my faith as I head towards getting my ticket punched. I won’t to be clear I don’t blame anyone or anything for my cancer, it has happened and I will deal with it as best I can.

I have been brought up in Christian (Methodist) home and spent my childhood in church and Sunday school etc. As I got older my faith has reduced due to many different reasons, however it never left me completely.

Now as I try to reconnect with God I can not escape this feeling that my prayers are for lack of a better term fake or false. I have to be honest here I don’t think I would be trying to rebuild my faith to what it was if I wasn’t facing this prognosis.

I worry that God will see that I’m only praying, asking for forgiveness for my many sins and strength to face what is coming only because I’m facing death and not because I want a full relationship with him again.

Has anyone got any advice on what I can do or have they had similar feelings when trying to reconnect with God?