I'll cut straight to the chase- Most of the time, she feels (or claims she feels) spiritual deprivation. Confusion of a bible verse causes her to quickly become skeptical of Christianity, and she goes down YouTube rabbit holes of skepticism.

She's in a few Christian support groups that don't really seem to help.

She's seeing a therapist and is even dabbling in anti-depressants (it's been.... 6 weeks? No progress yet)

She reads Christian apologetics and the Bible, prays, spends time with the Lord, attends church, etc yet always feels like she isn't doing enough. I never see her doing anything fun and simply being at peace with the Lord.

She has a very difficult time believing in God's love. The list just goes on from there.

When we talk on it, I'm often able to give her supportive words that she goes "WOW THAT'S HELPFUL!!!", but quickly forgets it, at least emotionally. I have repeated many of the same comforting words time and time again. So, I help, but only in the moment.

I can't tell if this is a major depression thing she needs more psychiatric help with, or if it's an actual spiritual dissonance. I don't really think it's the latter..... but I'm not sure. Just speaking from my experience, twice ( I won't explain the history as to why, no point) I've fallen off of taking my anti-depressants, and it *doesn't matter* how I spend my time, life feels absolutely meaningless. I thank God every day for present-day medication lol. I feel so NORMAL and level-headed with my meds. My point is, my wife and I largely spend the same amount of time with the Lord and studying the word, which makes me think it's a biological thing.

Ugh. I'm sorry for the rant. I'm worried about her. Any thoughts?