Please check my profile if you wish to see the first two parts of this story...

Thank you...

For the record.. Got the new job... No longer unemployed... they love me here Blessed with the most perfect daughter who is 3 weeks old tomorrow. Found Christ... Got Baptised. Changed my life in every category. Fixed relationship with wife Fixed relationship with family members... Finished reading bible and starting church leadership classes... ( Still reading, just able to say went cover to cover once) Turned my back on the terrible life choices I used to make...

Everything was great.. wonderful a true blessing from God.... but my past has come back to haunt me and my old job is taking me to court. I don't want to go into details.. they have the right to do so.

I could lose everything... my new job that is supporting my family and maybe even get separated from my beautiful princes of a daughter. I have an endless supply of friends on my side.

I know God is with me.. I know God is with my family... I know I'm forgiven of my sins... I know God is there... but I'm scared... I'm terrified and cannot even function on my day to day tasks. I'm depressed... I cry at everything that reminds my of my poor choices

I can't even look at my daughter without feeling ashamed... I cry or take everything I have to get by for a few minutes

I need help.. I don't know what I specifically need.. but I need help... My friends have been looking out for me... my family has been there for me...

I feel I have even had a very small talk with God over the situation... but it doesnt take away my crippling fear.... I've hardly eaten since I got this news but food is not easy to eat right now and I only do so when I'm begged... but it doesn't stay in me long. I'm hungry and nauseous at the same time

I know God is in control.... but km not used to giving up such control... its hard... I'm scared, but I want to just lay this at his feet and beg on my knees to take this situation.

Please pray for my family... pray that my situation works out for the best....

Thank you for listening at least.