Really long Story from Part 1: http://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/22ylsu/my_story/ TLDR: I screwed up at work, confessed months later and tried to fix it, wife is pregnant after 8 years of trying and lost job in the same month. Turned to God after nearly 20 years of being very hateful towards Christianity.

I have been crying nearly every day since this happened. I so desperately want a second chance, and have been praying constantly every day for it. I have not been handling the situation very well at all, and I fear that therapy may soon be in order to get away from the nightmares and crippling fear of what I have done to myself and family.

I may have that chance at the tips of my fingers. I was offered a job that will pay for my debts, pay for my family, pay for what I owe and allow me to pay back to my church and help them stay in service.
Everything worked out so perfectly that it only could be explained by God to have put it together, I will try to explain in detail below as there is a lengthy second part to this story, but for now… we are here. I am excited and happy as I have a chance to not be a burden to my family, to make things right, and to start a new life. However there is one small issue that is turning what could be a happy end to this story into an even more crippling nightmare that I fear I may not recover from.

The employment is looking to do a background check. This check should turn up nothing, but I cannot speak as to what my old job will report at this time. I am not sure how much that will weigh on the decision. They already expect my past employment report to not be promising, but I still am fearful of whey may say to ruin this chance for me. I tried to be as honest as I could with the employer without being blunt, but as of now I feel it’s all up to God. All I want is a second chance to prove myself, to prove I am a good person, and not the person I have been.

So this is my request, please… I beg to all reading this… please pray for me, pray for my family, pray that this is where God needs me to be. I know that God is neither a miracle vending machine, nor a wish granting genie and that there is a plan for us all; but please help me to help my family on this one. This job would not only be a raise, it would allow me to set such a future for my family and allow me to pay back my friends, and give back to a church that has supported me and my family since this started.

I know this is not life or death compared to some of the other requests here, but this is a request for my family’s future. Please again, I beg of you all, pray for them… pray that I may have that second chance to prove myself.

Thank You to all that do so, and have taken the time to at least include me in your thoughts. If anyone needs anything in return, please do not hesitate to ask, I will do whatever I can.

EDIT: Typo fixing. Happy Easter to all.