Hello. I hope this is okay on here for me to ask. If not, please delete this post from here. So I was raised on Christianity by the way of the Baptist branch. I used to attend church when I could. I’ve precipitated in different Christian related programs ranging from local church events to being in the Boy Scouts of America (like before all of the changes they made). I loved God and trusted him in my life.

As I grew up, I experienced things in my life that particularly weren’t good. In fact they were truly awful. Things that continue to have a major effect on life today in a very negative way. I also saw people around and close to me go through horrific things in their life that no person should ever have to experience. Even with these major hardships, they remained faithful to God. With the hardships they have experienced, they are slowly healing from these hardships. However with me, I have turned my feelings and emotions of God from faith and love to now anger, hatred, sadness and heartbreak.

I really question as to why God did what He did. Sure he gave people free will but I believe (could be wrong on this) He see what is in store for us down the road. Why must that road be filled with nothing but almost constant torture for me and the others around me. What did I do to deserve with what has happened to me and the others around me. I’m starting to think God created some people so he can have giggles/laughs through their torture. I know this really isn’t true but it’s how I feel right now. I won’t get the real answers on here but I felt like the people who can give me a different insight on this would be the folks on here.