Hey all, firstly I'm (22m) aware that envy is a sin and we should be grateful about all in our lives that is functional. I just wanted to rant a bit about what I envy a trust me it's a lot.

Firstly I was nerved at birth or quite honestly well before birth I was born with underdeveloped forearm due to amniotic band syndrome and additionally I am high functioning autistic. I just feel that it's not fair that most people are born normal and here I as well atleast 500000 other people are with these conditions. Not to mention I'm also ugly yes I understand the 'we're all made in God's image' thing but that's arbitrary in definition.

Secondly my sister whom is 20 years old is making more money than me and I'm working too. My brother 17 and 6'3 whereas I'm 5'8 so I'm not going be worthy of female attention. My youngest sister is essentially bred to be an athlete.

Thirdly, I just want to have a romantic partner as the Lord says it is not good for man to be alone. I just don't feel I'm worth anything, I don't have anything going for me, I hate myself and I've prayed about things like this but God just keeps saying No