I grew up in the Catholic church. My mom made me go to mass every week as a kid. I remember hating it at first. I was a kid with ADHD who did NOT want to sit still in a pew and listen to some old guy in a robe yap at us for an hour. And I didn't really believe. I just went through the motions to keep my mom happy, because I had no other choice.

But at some point, during my teen years, that changed. I became involved in youth groups, and I went on mission trips. And I saw beauty in the world. And I began to truly believe.

And then... I stopped.

As I grew older, I saw all the Injustice in the world. And I had some issues with the Catholic Church's teachings.

I didn't think homosexuality should be a sin. I disagreed with the thought that only men should be priests and figureheads in the church. I didn't think good, honest, loving people should have salvation withheld simply for following a different faith, or not believing in any faith at all.

But most of all, I disagreed with the concept of unconditionally loving a God who would allow such widespread suffering and corruption in the world... and I left it behind.

That was roughly 12, maybe 13 years ago. Since then, I've... been through a lot. And recently, it's felt like something's missing.

Don't get me wrong. I've had a good life so far. And I'm happy and grateful for what I have, but it feels like there's this... empty space in me.

And that brings me here today. I want to start again. Not necessarily as a Catholic. I'm open to other denominations of Christianity (in fact, I think I'd prefer it).

I don't know if I'll ever believe again, like I used to. But I want to try... I just don't even know how to start