I'm scared for the future and I do believe in god. At least I hope I do but it feels like I'm not good enough to be a Christian. I have 3 women in my life who I look up to and when I think of women of Christ I think of them. It feels like I can never reach the level of devotion and trust they have. I told one of them I'm scared to die and they said I shouldn't be because I'll be with God. Then when I asked about heaven they described it as if I wouldn't know anyone really... they said we would be sad to be in heaven if we knew who each other was because we would know who wasn't there and that scared me. I think of heaven as a place with my family forever. Idk I'm sorry to rant but I'm scared and I feel like I can't talk about this to my family bc I'll be a burden. I just need some advice on how to do this and how to better my relationship with God. Thx for reading. If this is not allowed I'm sorry I just joined this group.