At the moment, my life feels like it's in the hands of the devil. So much so that I sometimes even feel like I am the devil. This started when I chose to believe in the ideas and theories of man over the finished work of Jesus Christ at the cross.

There were a number of people who came into my life, claiming that they had used a drug called DMT and met Jesus Christ in this process, along with being reunited with lost loved ones.

Somewhere in getting lost in these theories that I chose to buy into, while smoking marijuana, I came to believe that I was a "new creation", but because I was still holding on to the past, in this occult narrative it created a "Snake symbol".

I began to hear voices and have symptoms of schizophrenia and gangstalking which could not be helped by mental health professionals.

Now I have turned back to Jesus Christ, using www.gospel30.com as a frame of reference. Another user provided me this link, and it makes it very simple.

The tipping point for me was last night during the Eclipse in America. As usual, I have been frequenting r/starseeds and r/SoulNexus looking for meaning and hidden messages in the posts by users, and most of all, going through this "eclipse" with other people practicing astrology, witchcraft and general occultism.

This is putting my "faith", once again in "man", rather than in Jesus Christ.

My mind is so poisoned that I am obsessed with reincarnation (for example, my sister died in 2016, and a month ago I heard a voice say to me "If your sister reincarnated into a new body, she would be just a child, what would you even say to her?" - this specific example is a source of great pain for me.)

The devil uses these beliefs in occultism against me. He uses them to justify seeds of perversion he plants in my mind by exploiting my grief. Reincarnation is NOT real. When we die, our Souls go to be with the Lord. If we are saved by experiencing his love and mercy, through the death of his Son who died 2,000 years ago at the cross, we are reunited in Heaven with the Father.

I am writing these things also to rebuke the devil who has set up footholds in my life.

The devil also uses reincarnation to pervert the Holy Spirit entering into me. Jesus sent his Spirit because he couldn't be with us in a physical form to live inside of us.I came to believe that my fathers death was my fault, and that I neglected him, and that my father's Spirit/Soul is trying to enter into my body, when really it is probably the Holy Spirit exorcising this devil which has made its nest in my heart and in my mind.

I don't want to ask for prayer, as it is Jesus Christ I am trying place my faith in, and not man. Because man can say nasty things, lie, deceive, use body language and gestures and sounds to manipulate ones thoughts.

(I struggle with this especially, as "he who is in the world" barrages me on a daily basis through the actions of what I presume are the unsaved, but could also be put up to schizophrenic symptoms.)

I just want to get out of this hole of occultism that I dug for myself. Christ is the only way.
(*JESUS CHRIST, as the Bible says that many will come in His name.)