Hey everyone! So on feb 7th 2023 I talked to this man who was good looking. On the 9th we went to the mall for a date, on the 12th we got together and by the 14th we knew we had to tell people

We’ve been together for a year, for 3 months I lived with him, we dressed as m&ms for Halloween because our names start with m, in November I had a pregnancy scare and he was supportive but his sister got pregnant and on sec 16th he proposed to me and our anniversary passed but on the 22 he wanted a break, it wasn’t until march 9th we got back together but march 16th we broke up

Why would God allow all this happen only to end the relationship? Was it our sinful mistake of not waiting till marriage? Was God trying to tell me something? And now I am single and sad and a little mad because he lied about our reason for breaking up.. I’ve been trying to trust God but I’m bisexual and now I’m craving for a women.. I don’t think I’m ready for a relationship but I’m not sure what Gods intent is here. Maybe I idolized him to much and God wants me to be paying attention to him but I am honestly not positive