I’ve been considering becoming a Latter Day Saint (Mormons for people who don’t know)

In the past years, I experienced a lot of pain in my non-denominational church, even got kicked out of it for some very weird reasons. I was always on the back burner at that church, and it was so cliquey. I started there as a youth, and was told to leave when I was in my early twenties. When I was in my teens, I was finally in the friend group of the “main” people in the church. It took me a while to get to be apart of this group, and o ended up losing it all. It was hard, but my life has been much better lately. After I was kicked out, it was a really refreshing feeling, because it wasn’t good for me. I started going to a new non-denominational church and I was enjoying it, but my worship often felt empty and unmotivated. They were more moved by the spirit, and that was really inspiring to me.

I met some LDS missionaries a few months back, and we started meeting regularly. I have now been going there on Sundays, and the other day, I told the missionaries that I will set a date for baptism. I have enjoyed my time with them, but they follow some weird rules and doctrines that a don’t always agree with. And at the end of the day, I don’t feel peace in my decision to get baptized, and I feel like that’s an important thing to feel when you are making a decision like that. In all honesty, I just really love how other people treat eachother, and I love the chivalry, and friendliness of the people there. I think I might be clinging on to that way more.

I just don’t know what to do. This could be a wonderful decision, but it could also be the worst. It’s not that the missionaries are pressuring me to get baptized (they have asked a few times tho) I just think I like the idea of what there church is all about, and their family values, and I fear that I won’t find people like this in other churches. I noticed that a lot of the people in the new non-denominational church acted like the ones in my old church, but at least in the new church, I’m not bound by religion and doctrine. Maybe I’m just feeling sad because the life that I dreamed I would have as a teen will never happen because of the decision that I’m going to make. Anyway, I’d love anyone’s two cents on this one. I’m a little stuck on what to do.