Hi. I am not a native English speaker, so I apologize for the mistakes. Iam 21 years old and I am not married yet, but I would like to be in the future. For some time now I've been fantasizing about swinging and threesomes. I'm a Christian and I'm very conservative person, so I would never expect that I would even think about something like that. Therefore, I want to ask a few questions to people who have experienced something like this.

How to deal with these thoughts? I fantasize about it, but I'm afraid that if it ends up happening, I'll start seeing my wife more as a friend with benefits than a wife.

How to find someone like that? Finding a conservative woman, preferably a Christian , who would be willing to try something like this is basically impossible. How do you even start discussing something like this with your partner and how do you find another couple?

I am torn at the thought of threesome with a couple. It turns me on, but if I imagine having sex with someone's wife, I feel guilty. I also feel the same way about my wife having sex with someone else. I think I would feel cheap and like a loser even though I would be actively involved in it, or have sex with someone else's wife. How can I make sure that I will not experience this feeling?

I don't believe that these thoughts will just leave me when if I keep suppresing them. How can I stop myself from having similar fantasies if I find that I would not be able to bear their consequences?

I am open to any discussions.