Sorry I didn’t plan to rant this much. I know this is a long read but I appreciate who ever takes the time to help me through my questions. Skip to bottom if you just want to answer my questions.

Background: Im a newly engaged man and I have been with my fiancé for 7 years. We our both god fearing Christians and we will never depart from that. Me and my fiancé have an amazing relationship. We grew up in a small town and we were best friend throughout high school, not sweethearts. We couldn’t be separated even though there was no romance between us. We would go to party’s together and I would explain to the boys that she wasn’t my girlfriend but that they better be careful how they treat her. That being said I have witnessed her enjoy herself sexually with some guys that I can still call my friends today. Awkward right? Not really actually. It was tougher to grasp in our early years of our relationshipbut i understand that were in our youth and I had my own girlfriend at the time, it’s part of life that I had no problem accepting. I hold nothing against her. I have to admit that I think this is where my comfort towards having a healthy open relationships began. Because of We now have a very strong communication, we share with each other every detail of our life’s. We have a very passionate attitude towards each other inside and outside of the bedroom. We can’t get enough of each other. It truly feels like nothing could ever change that. I have so much respect and love for this gorgeous woman i can’t begin to fathom a day without her. I’m genuinely attracted to everything about her. Her mind, body and soul is perfect. She is a blessing from god and I would never sacrifice our relationship. Although we have this passionate love that we are fully committed to, we have shared the mutual idea of having an open relationship many times. We both agreed that this isn’t anything we need to live a long happily married life together, but we can’t help but admire the lifestyle. What’s strange is I personally don’t care to have sexual relations with another woman, sure it can be intriguing but I ultimately just love the idea of letting her explore her sexual needs. Which seems to be my sexual need as well. At first I thought I was just holding on to my youthful desires, but I truly believe this is something I want to experience with her. I don’t know what it is but my heart throbs and my mind fills with joyful thoughts when I imagine sharing her beautiful sexuality with someone else. It doesn’t feel like I’m being betrayed. It doesn’t feel like it’s something I would regret. It only feels like something my heart has wanted for a while. I spent multiple hours last night seeking answer from Christian forums and scriptures . And this topic always lead to one thing, adultery! Adultery! Adultery!

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Questions: I read a lot scripture and post on this page and know these are common questions but I need to have my own discussion and this seems like the only place I could find answers from likeminded Christians.

The problems we face is how do you justify an open relationship from the Bible’s perspective when sexual desires and sexual immortality is scattered through the books as sin?

I know a lot of words are misinterpreted but do the dots still not connect? Lust, temptation, adultery, fornication, etc. I know these things are different but do they not point to the same conflicting issue? That sex is gods gift for your marriage and shouldn’t be used for anyone else?

I have found 1 Corinthians (7:3-5) to be awakening even though I don’t fully understand verse 5.

“3 The husband should give to his wife her conjugal rights, and likewise the wife to her husband. 4 For the wife does not have authority over her own body, but the husband does. Likewise the husband does not have authority over his own body, but the wife does. 5 Do not deprive one another, except perhaps by agreement for a limited time, that you may devote yourselves to prayer; but then come together again, so that Satan may not tempt you because of your lack of self-control.”

Does this mean I should give in to my wife’s sexual needs?

What type of temptation is the verse referring to in 1st Corinthians 7:5?

What is consider a sexual desire and why is it frowned upon? Should we not desire to explore sex with our wife? Can I not look at my wife with a lustful mind?