Last Wednesday was our very first experience after 13 years of being married to my best friend. For 13 years we have never once done anything that resembled an ENM relationship. We both had a solid foundation in our faith and marriage. We are soul mates.

Our journey has had ups, downs, trials, life, death, wealth, poverty… pretty much anything life could throw at it and we remained strong through it all. Over the course of the last 2 years I have changed a lot… in secret. I started to have desires that I was certain that would end in divorce, judgement, and shame. My solution?….. bury it deep inside and never speak of it. Which worked out just fine for a while. These feelings and desires became so strong that I began to feel like I was hiding skeletons from my wife and after a while I could no longer live with that weight on my shoulders. So I decided to tell her…

I’m not one for labels as I do not like being put in a box but for simplicity sake I told her what hotwife is. I’m sure she was in shock and in disbelief. I’m sure she thought I had ulterior motives…. But she did not judge me. She did not shame me.

She communicated with me. She communicated with me because I was vulnerable enough to communicate with her.

In the months that followed we began to roll play this fantasy… always communicating. And boy oh boy did the sex get HOT. The connection between our souls deepened. We began to feel…. younger.

For her birthday I decided to line up a 4 handed massage (me and another man)… I floated the idea to her and she accepted. I won’t go into details but he got everything accept home plate. Watching my wife enjoy herself with another man was intoxicating. It wasn’t a perfect play date… but it didn’t have to be. We had fun and that’s all that matters.

We have been in a honeymoon phase since that night. We have had sex every night since last Wednesday. We have checked in on each others mental state as well. There is 0 jealousy.

We have talked about possibly doing this again in the future now that we have a better idea on how we want to play. But who knows…. we might never do it again either and that’s OK too. Being a hotwife (stag/vixen) is my gift to her and she can use that gift at her discretion.

TLDR: My wife is freaking awesome.