It finally happened. She knew beforehand that I have some fantasies about other men having sex with her but thought that it is nothing more. So it was time to come out of the closet.

I made sure she knows that I don’t want to have sex with any other woman nor do I want couple swap or anything. I’m sure she believed it.

She was confused, shocked, concerned. She wasn’t mad. She didn’t cry.

She said she has never had these fantasies. She doesn’t watch porn, almost never masturbates. We were both virgin when we got married.

Her first reaction was that this kinda crumbles the view she has on marriage. It wasn’t nice to hear.

She sees lot of risks, what if she would get pregnant, what if the kids would know.

And the biggest concern for her: what if she would fall in love to a guy she has sex with and would leave me because of that. I was surprised about that. I wouldn’t have guessed it is something that would come to her mind.

I did answer to that. My answer was truthfully my view on that: our marriage is very strong and I am not afraid at all. It would be natural for her to catch feelings for a guy she would have sex with, and that is okay. I wouldn’t even think it is possible for her to just have sex as a purely physical act. But feelings as they come and they go are not dangerous. We are still 100% committed to each other.

I said that I love her so much and I want her to come back to me everytime.

So that’s it. I am happy that I said it. It wasn’t perfect - far from that. But it has been said now. I don’t know what happens next. I don’t expect to anything happen. She was shocked and clearly not into it. Still, I am relieved that she knows now. She deserves to know.

Thank you for all the support, dm’s and everything. They mean a lot.