my mother has done an extensive list to me and the rest of my family. she chose someone younger than her oldest (me) to run away with(alcohol and drug induced) she has threatened to put a spell on me, threatened me with a knife and try to ruin my life in every way. yet my heart breaks because i wish it was different. i went contact 3 years than stepped in because she needed to alcohol detox professionally. i got her clean and then went no contact again bc of the mental games and mean things she says to us. yet i love my mother and hurt so bad because i want a relationship with her. i just wish it was different. i need advice on how to go about this. i know god wants me to honor my mother and she has that title, but i’m confused if the boundaries im setting are upsetting god or if im doing it the wrong way. my hurt heart desperately needs help.