I grew up from birth in a level 4-5ish hoard. Moved away as soon as I could at age 22 after HP relocated to a new home (also became a hoard). Age 30 now and would like to seek therapy, possibly get formally diagnosed with anxiety/depression/ CPTSD.

I am concerned if I open up to a therapist something bad will happen to my mom as result of their legal obligation to help when they hear of people in bad situations. She is still a hoarder but I have basically had to move across country and limit contact for my own health and well being.

I understand some people might say I am morally or legally obligated to help her but as far as I’m concerned I was hiding from social services as a child and have no interest in getting involved with outside authorities or trying to resolve this hoard. We don’t have money or resources or the time energy or emotional fortitude to go down that road.

What do I do? Am I horrible person for wanting to help myself and not my mom? Am I crazy for knowing she doesn’t want help and not wanting to stir the pot? Should I not even bother with therapy or go and just keep it more surface level? Feeling very alone.