Just thinking about how, who and what you are attracted to can change over the years. It’s interesting to reflect on what you were attracted to over the years and who you were then. Kind of like how media is influenced by current events I.e. we wouldn’t have “Rent” without the aids epidemic.

So for context I’m black (dark skinned) and very big 6”6’ now I am in pretty good shape but growing up I was fat. It never looked like I was obese but I hit 320 pounds before going off to play sports in college and building alot more muscle mass. Ironically as a kid I wasn’t attracted to people as dark as me. My type back then was either light skinned black girls(red or yellow bones 🤤) or latinas who were fit. Where I grew up there were no white people for miles. This lasted through high school until I discovered white girls with big booties 🤤. I never really fit into my neighborhood growing up. I never felt “hood” enough, I had both parents in my house and they were married. I also never claimed any sort of gang affiliation so that also hurt my street cred so when I discovered white girls with big old ghetto booties I was in heaven. It was also nice that I felt “black” around them in a way I never felt at home. Wow, this is the first time I’ve realized that… On top of that I made the mistake of using sex to fuel my self esteem. Growing up because I was bigger, people would make fun of me by suggesting I should date the big girls in school so once I got in college and lost my virginity. I made it my point to only fuck gorgeous girls who were in good shape. This went on until I met my wife.

Unsurprisingly, she is a gorgeous white woman with a juicy booty. After marrying her I don’t feel the need for to only be with objectively good looking girls. I wish I could say it’s because I’ve evolved but really I think it’s that I already have a gorgeous wife.

After being married for 8 years what’s more attractive to be is more intangible. Like a lady being GGG means so much more than how pretty their face is or if they are skinny or fat (not that I don’t love the complete package but if I had to choose one). For example I’m way more turned on by ladies who like the taste of my cum then any ass or tits I’d ever see. Another thing that has changed is I’m now so attracted to dark skinned woman 😍. Thinking about this it’s probably because im married to a white woman. There’s the obvious allure of difference in race and novelty but psychologically I feel more black when in contrast to her. It’s like when a “downlow” guy is married and they call his wife his “beard” she makes him “straight” by association. Whereas my wife affirms I’m black just in her living as a white woman.