My wife and I have been married for over 15 years. I lost my virginity to her and she lost hers to me. So for my entire life, she was the only sex partner I've ever known.

For the past 5 years or so our marriage has been pretty shitty.. sexless as well as emotionless.. the kids have become more important to her than me. Despite my many attempts to fix this, I finally came to the realization that this may just be my life now because I do not want to divorce her for several reasons.... One of which is that I cannot imagine a world where I don't get to see my children every single day.

So.. a couple of months ago I began having an affair with a woman in a similar situation as me. Having sex with her has been amazing... Then there have been a couple of times that my wife and I have had sex since I began my affair and it made me realize something. Sex with my wife has way more love and passion than sex with my AP. I never once thought that would happen. I had thought that we no longer loved each other and we were just staying together for the kids. As crazy as it may sound, cheating has actually made me realize how much I love my wife.

I'm still seeing my AP for now and the foreseeable future... At least until my sex life in my marriage shows significant signs of improvement. I can't go weeks on end with zero sex and so far that's how it's been. Anyway.. just wanted to share my story. Maybe some of you have had similar experiences.