I’ve been married for 8 years and have cheated since the beginning. I cheat a lot. I have one regular AP (F38) that I see every Monday before work. She knows I’m married and is married herself. It’s the perfect arrangement. I have another semi regular (F30ish) that has gotten married in the last 2.5 years, and tries very hard to “be good,” but still caves at least once every couple months. She also knows I’m married.

Aside from those, I have slept with over 30 other women since I’ve been married. Most of them have no idea I’m married, and think I have no social media. I’m sure there are plenty that assume I’m married and don’t care. Especially the ones I met while I travelled.

I spend so much time texting other women and trying to plan hookups. It’s exhausting yet so satisfying . Sometimes I have a week where I’ll sleep 3 different women and I’ll still keep trying for more.

I also love to record my encounters. And I’m addicted to watching them. I rarely use condoms. And love recording the damning evidence.

I put so much effort into hiding this part of myself but I feel like I’m going to be my own undoing. If my wife found out a fraction of the cheating I’ve been doing, her head would spin. And this thought alone should be enough to stop. Yet, I can’t. I’m actually turned on by it. Anyone else?