I’m a 26M and recently married. My wife is the greatest person I know and I love her dearly, more than anyone else in the world and I want to be with her forever. Because of that I’m having a bit of a hard time reconciling my sexual drive. In the last 6 months to a year, I’ve developed a craving for a sexual slave fantasy. I had a woman that I had chatted with for months, almost a year and I jerked off to her almost daily. She was engaged herself but did not like her fiance and was in a tough position without much money so she couldn’t leave him. We had the hottest online relationship. She acted as my sex slave who belonged to me. Anytime I was horny she would respond and beg me to fill her up or throat fuck her or use her. She constantly reminded me that I owned her and that she fantasized about me filling her up and sending her back to her loser unsuspecting husband. She fantasized about me taking her whenever I wanted however I wanted and using all her holes. This was extremely satisfying to me and became what I thought about when I got horny anytime I wasn’t with my wife.

About a month ago she vanished from Snapchat and I haven’t been able to find her so I guess that online relationship is over. I’m pretty devastated because I grew very fond of her and she was so happy and willing to be my fucktoy sex slave and talked soo dirty with me I don’t know if I will ever find someone like that again. I don’t know what happened but I hope she’s okay.

My wife and I have a good sex life but we don’t have sex very often, about once a week. It used to be better and I think the feeling of her not satisfying me fully is where this came from. I just desire a willing slut that wants to be there to be used whenever I’m horny, knowing that I will go back home to my wife as if nothing happened after. But then always come back to her for my true sexual pleasure.

I don’t know what to think about my desires. Am I a bad person? Do you think it’s possible to find someone else that would be this way for me?