So basically on Friday night; I came back from work and my fiancé (Angie 29F) was going out with her friends. I stayed home and they went out. We been living together for 4 years. It was still early and I take care of all financial responsibilities. So I opened up my computer and her computer since she had asked me to do her taxes and mine. I open it up and I stumble upon her journal it was left open. I read the first line and my heart dropped. She claimed she is messing things up with me. She had been cheating on me with some guy she met while out with her friends. I felt like throwing up and got anxious. I immediately called her and told her to come home and explain herself she claimed those are just stories she has been dreaming off since she has been reading adult novels.

I immediately leave the home because I can’t stand it and go on a drive to cool down. Part of me was still hopeful and almost bought the excuse. Now I realize the date and time per her journal showed what time she met with the guy and I realize that day she was traveling for work and said goodnight to me super early. So I come home and she is sleeping and I took her phone and I randomly guessed the password. (Super crazy I can’t believe it either; it was her Angel number). And than I saw the text messages between her and this guy. The worst is she made fun of the cheating with memes to her friends that went out. We live together and I pay the rent. I have asked her to leave our home.

I feel so heartbroken and my entire world is shattered. This was my person that I was supposed to spend the life with. She had been crying and telling me that she has been mentally depressed and those actions didn’t meant anything. I just feel so numb to the world and feel like something broke inside of me. How long will this feeling last?