With Loctober here I wanted to share my journey to being locked in chastity full time for almost four years. I’d like to share not only the physical aspects of being locked up but also the emotional and mental aspect of it. I didn’t realize how much being locked in chastity would affect so many other aspects.

First a little background I’ve been crossdressing from early teen’s. My crossdressing progressed, I met my wife and at first she freaked out knowing that I was dressing. After to time she took to it and our sex life went wild. This also progressed into us wanting to do a threesome. From the first time we added another person into our sex life I took a back seat to her having sex with this other person and I became a cuckold to her.

Over the next few years my wife happly dated bulls, I was allowed to watch and she helped fem me and our sex life slowly transitions from me fucking her like a man to us having more girly sex with me crossdressing and us using toys to pleasure each other. She started using a strap-on on me and within a short period of time she had me cuming just from her using her strap-on on me, I was having amazing sissygasms.

I first told my wife about wanting her to lock me up in chastity after I had already bought one (tried it on for a short period of time). I think this freaked her out a bit but I was able to convince her that I wanted her to control my ability to jack off and cum.

The first weekend we used it was amazing, I locked up Friday after work and our sex was amazing. As most of us experience sizing was an issue at first and after a few cages I found a couple that I liked, fit well and minimized the irritation. I found a metal one and a plastic one. I started trying to lock myself up often to see how long I could last. The biggest issue was always the first two or three day, specially at night. At night my mind ran wild and I’d be all horny laying next to my wife in my chastity, thong and pantyhose (I wear thong and pantyhose 24 7, even to bed with my wife and under my regular office attire.)

I love that my wife would tell me to lock up like Wednesday and not let me out till after she gave me a sissygasm locked up a few days later. She then started to have me lock up when she was out with her lover on a date. I hated this at first because my usual routine when she went out on a date was to crossdress, get on my computer and jack off and edge myself the entire time she was gone, I’d also use toys.

When she started to lock me up when she was on a date it threw my whole routine out the window. I no longer could hack off and I was trying to compensate with toying myself more and even using her magic wand on my chastised clitty. Both were amazing but neither replaced stocking my little soft clitty.

I did start to notice that when I was chastised not only was I more horny but also my other senses were more heightened. I was more attentive to my wife, doing things for her specially things that were non sexual. I already do all the house chores, cook, clean, laundry but I felt more eager to please. I compare it to when you close your eyes and are asked to taste something and are asked what it is. You use your pallet, your smell and even your sense of touch.

I tried locking up for longer periods of time but the longest I was able to go was 31 day. I’d beg her to lock me up and then a week in I’d beg her to let me know. I’d say it was hurting but that usually wasn’t the issue. Mentally I was over being locked up, I wanted out, I wanted to be able to jack off but I think that mentally being locked up for periods of time was affecting how I thought and felt.

At this point my wife had already made me start dating guys on my own, I was a cuckold to her and I was not performing in bed with her using my clitty. So knowing that I had no real use for my clitty wasn’t an issue. I think mentally realizing that it being locked up reassured the fact that my clitty was useless and that my last hope to feel like a man when I wasn’t crossdressed or being cuckolded was also gone because I was wearing a chastity in my regular day to day.

She started to lock me up more and more and she let me out if I asked, of course not right when I asked but when she said it was ok. From early on I started to log in my journal when I was locked and when I went back to look I realized the year prior to her locking me up permanently I had spent about two thirds of the year locked up.

When we started using chastity I had a long term guy I’d serve. He went crazy and loved the idea of me being locked and not able to use my clitty for any sexual satisfaction. My wife taught me how to have a sissygasm from anal alone, I was able to control when I had it for the most part. I started to notice when I was locked in chastity I wasn’t always able to control when I had a sissygasm.

At this point I didn’t have post nut clarity often but I still controlled my sissygasms and only opted to have them right before the guy I was with finished or not at all. Nothing worse than being fucked and having a sissygasm and having the post nut clarity kick in. I hate to admit but early on a few times I had to have the guy stop and end it after I came and couldn’t keep going.

I did find that even when I did have a sissygasm early in a session and I did have post nut clarity it didn’t affect me as deep and it didn’t last long. I would recover and was back to enjoying having the guy pound me just like I was before I came.

During this time I lost my long term FWB and I was back on the hunt for someone that was interested in meeting me and making it a regular thing. As a sissy I’ve never liked having my clitty played with when I’m serving a dom. Mostly because it gets so sensitive that even very little attention to it could make me cum. I’ve always told guy I don’t like or want it played with.

Having access to a sissies clitty is something some guys like and even insist on. I found some guys would agree but then when we met I’d be fighting them off from playing with it and that always was a turn off for me. When I started advertising again I’d state I was locked in chastity by my wife with no access to my clitty. When I met a guy I’d put it on and tell then she was the only one with the key.

This worked out great, it weeded out the guys who said one thing but had a different intention when it came to accessing my clitty. I loved the feeling of being crossdressed and being a sissy to a real man and knowing even if he did see my clitty it didn’t look like a guys cock in my cute pink chastity. I also found many guys got off even more seeing me locked in chastity.

I was hooked for reals, I wasn’t able to go more than a few weeks without unlocking but more and more I felt like being locked felt more natural and I wanted to be locked.