For context I left CA course after my september attempt and towards the end , the exam I didnt study anything. Yes thorughout june . july , august few weeks I studied hard , my best , but towards the end when the exam came nearer ; It was too much for me and I had lost all the fuel and just exhausted I knew this course's exam pattern is not healthy for me and I didnt wanna take a toll on my health anymore so I quitted , I didnt deserve this. I am not personally cut through to tackle this exams.

Fast forward to almost 3 weeks , I just spent on thinking inquiring and everything related to planning. I had lost everything and on rock bottom. When I look at my peers , non- CAs they are doing good , they are now travelling , enjoying life and all. It's like they made the right choice after 12th and I am happy for them but at the same time jealous and hate myself a bit.

I hate myself for thinking why I joint it in first place ? I am just 3 years behind in career and this is so so bad for me, I know what I should do , but I am too hesitant to take action coz I feel that I will fail again.

I wish I was 17 again , at my peak and could go back change everything