I’m supposed to be getting ready for my surprise but I’ve found myself doing a little silly dally. I seem to do that when I am not in control of a situation… possible trauma response, perhaps. Especially today of all days… but I try my hardest to abandon all thoughts of that day 24 years ago… I’m trying to develop an excuse but for once, I have not a word to offer. He should probably write that down on the calendar actually but anyway. I did pick out something to wear tho it definitely isn’t something I should walk out of my house in! I can only imagine what would go through the neighbors minds!! I’m certain they wouldn’t believe today is actually Halloween, no matter how much I try to convince them. Perhaps 6” heels and the ability to see through this “jacket” isn’t much help with that though.

I have carefully been choosing each piece of this for a while now, if you want the truth. Building my confidence to wear such attire still lacks more than I tend to lead on. But the theater means not here therefore in creeps a sense of security in animosity. No one should suspect it’s me. Every time we have been, forums lead me to believe that those who’ve attended have been the least suspicious of me. Yet others that know me, would expect absolutely nothing less from my overly eccentric ass!