I have a very high sex drive & think about it all the time. But I learned the hard way that casual sex is so bad for my mental health. It’s impossible for me not to become emotionally attached & drama always ensues, & in my experience the guy ends up having sex with other girls leading to me feeling crushed. I’m waiting for the right time with the right person.

So I’ve had a crush on someone for a year & he’s expressed interest at times but it’s been on and off so I realize that I can’t expect anything real to come out of it. I don’t want to get my hopes up and I realize it’s very likely that he’d end up disappointing me anyways. From my past experience, men have always disappointed me. They always lose interest and choose another girl instead. I wish I could go out & explore to try to meet different people but I have a lot of problems I’m dealing in my personal life at the moment. I don’t and never have met ppl I’m attracted to doing the activities I normally like to do so I know I need to try new things eventually.

Being celibate is for my own good. But sometimes I just wish I could have sex again.. Like maybe find an attractive couple to have sex with so I don’t get attached. If I have sex with a single guy I always get too attached if I enjoy the sex. I masturbate but it’s not the same. I just really miss sex.