Hi all! I found this sub searching for support. I had been lurking at ttcafterloss for a bit.

A bit about me, I'm 29 married for six years. It took a year of trying to conceive my first. The pregnancy was relatively easy, just a lot of concern due to the baby being so small (always under the 10th percentile). He came out happy and healthy thankfully.

We started trying again before kid 1 turned 2. Just after he turned 3 we finally got a BFP. (April) Just a few weeks later I lost the baby. It all happened naturally but it was physically and emotionally painful, especially after trying for so long. I did see a doctor and they monitored my hormones for three weeks until they dropped to normal levels.

We started trying again right away and here I am a few months later pregnant but very early (not quite 5 weeks by my calculations.) The doctor did blood draws yesterday and I should hear back Monday if they want to do progesterone supplements. In the meantime I'm continuing my pill popping with prenatals, vitamin d, folic acid, and baby aspirin.

I'm super excited to be pregnant again. This time even feels more like it was with my first: extreme exhaustion, no appetite, sore breast, and excessive discharge. The only thing missing is the all day nausea. But even though I have the symptoms, I'm scared beyond words about losing this one too. I know it's so early and the chances are greater now than later. I almost wish I hadn't found out so early but I did and now I can't sleep or stop obsessing about everything I feel physically.

I hope this sub can provide some support and help me stay sane while I wait out these results and this first trimester!

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