I just went through this guy's profile on Instagram again. We used to talk a lot and had a lot in common, from mental issues down to music taste. He was the first person locally I'd come across on the internet that I clicked with. Unfortunately we never met in person, I got terrified of possible meetups and was an anxious wreck even though he offered to pay for my tickets to gigs he invited me to. He was in a band, had tattoos and had pure intentions. I still said no despite my attraction to him.

To this day, I regret it. He always views my Instagram stories but stopped DMing me when he found himself a nice girl. Sometimes I wonder if that could've been me. So many what ifs and opportunities that I just let slip through my fingers. I wish I could've pushed myself a little, given myself a chance to be happy, but I chose to wallow in my comfort zone.

The sad part is, I've come across a handful of people that could've been it but I chose to let my insecurities and issues tower over potential partners. I can't be the only one going through this? Right?