I think every year I manage to have a fun Christmas and enjoy the holidays and time with my family .. but also every year the time leading up to it is stressful, and every year I have no idea how it’s all going to work. But I get through it, and I think to myself ‘by this time next year things will be better’. Then ‘this time next year’ rolls around again, always to fast. I hate walking into the stores and seeing the Halloween/Thanksgiving/Christmas stuff up. It’s like a punch in the gut, here I am ,again. Not ready, again. Goals and aspirations for myself for the year, and my life, not met. Again.

Don’t get me wrong, I love the holidays, and I’m not generally a super negative person.

I just really wish I could get to the point in life I could just see all of that and just enjoy it and be excited and happy about it.