im supposed to be studying for exams right now but we had a party yesterday where i was asked that and that question stuck to me. im reading my old entries right now and i stumbled upon my post from when i went camping with my friends. i'm in college now, in a dorm, alone with my laptop and notes as a companion, well im not completely alone i can hear my roommate snoring rn. im a med student so time management is important but i just wanted to put this out there.

we had a party yesterday for the organization im in (im a freshman and thought i'd make more friends once i joined an organization) and it was the most i've laughed in a while. life hasnt been treating me well lately and i wont go into that, im just happy that somehow i got a break from it. it was the first event after christmas break so i saw all my other friends again too. it was really fun, we had a lot of games to play lined up that was stupid (beer pong but instead of beer the cups had dares in them). idk if yall watch anthpo on youtube (which i highly recommend), but yesterday was kind of like his videos. i got to breathe after everything that has happened so far. i also won best dressed and i did a dumb thing, i screamed "lesbian (im a lesbian) outfit for the win!! wootwoot!!" while walking towards the platform they had set up and they all cheered for me. i was a bit drunk ig so there's college for you. we also had teams set up and our team won second place so we had to take a picture together with the trophy but i laid on the floor to pose. the team ended up dogpiling on me which was rlly funny.

me and my friend went to a cat cafe right after just to calm down a bit and we ended up talking a lot. she asked hows the year been treating me and i remember looking down at the cat in my lap before coming up with a proper response. i thought about how the party went and how happy i felt, i thought about how much i laughed and felt like my worries are far away. "i can breathe easily." which sounded so cliche and stupid now that im remembering it but theyre a writer so ig i gave them material lol.