I’m visiting my family (I moved away 3 years ago) and this is the second time Ive visited since my dads prostate cancer diagnosis. He’s on medication that’s helping but it hit me like a 20 ton truck to see him so skinny and fragile. I guess it’s because I only see his face on FaceTime, this is the first time I really get to experience any of the things he goes through. It doesn’t bother me but I can tell he hates to look weak around me because I’m his youngest and he’s always been the strongest man I know. if anything I just want to make sure he’s happy and enjoying his time with me and my partner but when he doesn’t get to the toilet quick enough and ends up wetting himself I just know he feels bad and embarrassed because he’s stopped himself from going to places with us as a family because he doesn’t want to “ruin our day” god I wish he could understand that he could never and that we enjoy our time with him even when these things happen. I’m sure we’ve had him eat and drink more in the last 3 weeks together than he has in 3 months but I just love to see him eat and enjoy himself! My mom and sister have tried to get him to buy men’s underwear to help him incase he really needs it but he’s refused…maybe it’s a pride thing? So I bought him his first pack…just like he probably did with me. I told him he didn’t have to use them if he didn’t want to but they’d be there if he needed them..and this morning the pack was open and I asked him how it went and he said he didn’t even need to use it but he’s surprised it’s so comfortable and he was thankful. I’m so happy that my dad gets a little piece of the dignity he thinks he’s lost because of cancer. I love him and he’ll never ever ruin my day.