My cousin who is like a little brother passed away in September 2022 due to Pancreatic cancer he was 10 and would have been 11 in 2 weeks time. The whole situation was traumatic. I feel numb and a part of me is missing I feel like whatever has happened has just been 1 big mistake and it’ll get fixed any second now but reality won’t allow it. I’ve tried seeing a therapist but I don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere with her and I’ve tried group therapy and I come out feeling bad, most people at the group sessions are quite bitter which I can totally understand and I feel for them, but I don’t want to feel shitty about talking about what’s happend to my family so it puts me off. Is there any other alternatives? Do I ride it out until I learn?