Started nnn off on a break bc I accidentally ruined on the first day and then my keyholder stepped down.. I had to take a couple weeks for myself after that but last night I caved and listened to the curse a couple times to relax and get to sleep. I accidentally ruined again on the second listen because it just turns me on too much 😖

I know that I'm always going to be a denial slut and that I crave the control. I want to be punished for whenever I do cum (spanking my pussy or being put on no-touch always works best) and trained to never reach the edge without permission. It's starting to feel like I'm desperate again to be told no and encouraged to be a good pet. It gives me so much more fulfillment than just letting me cum whenever.

Please please please tell me not to cum again? You can suggest challenges or punishments for me to do for all those ruins that I didn't deserve. I really need to get back to feeling dumb and slutty and aroused. Even just a little reminder to listen again or that good boys Don't cum would go a long way. Please? 🥺💞