Hi everyone. I've alwas been a bit addicted to orgasms, as long as I can remember I was always worried how I would behave if I didn't "deal with" feeling horny, but was always fascinated by the idea of denial.

I wound up deciding to try cals curse a year ago since I was single and why not. Enjoyed it but eventually gave in from edging too much and stopped.

Last week it got back into my head out of nowhere and I found myself asking a friend for permission, and it felt soooo much better than without I thought I want permission every time or why bother lol

Then yesterday I wound up chatting with a girl who made a very convincing argument that boys shouldn't cum. And I wound up promising never to cum again :P

Not sure how realistically I can keep that promise but I definitely want to try, and the hypnosis is helping but my body is aching and it's only been a few days.

The weird stuff in my post history would probably tell you how much I've been conflicted between wanting the pleasure and feeling like it's an addiction.... So I really want to see where this goes as more than just a fun kink :P

Posted on a couple of other places I'm just looking for encouragement/support to keep my promise :)