Sissy hypno has had an effect on me. My femme urges have always been bubbling underneath but the videos have brought them to the surface. When I take 420 edibles, they lower my inhibitions and then when I put those videos on, I am so horny and my femme desires take over. I get on cam and play with myself. I want people to watch and comment. I take out my toys and play with my ass.

I am very, very shy about this in person because I'm not passable at all and I want to be discrete but to be honest, I would love to find a fwb that I can share this part of me. I want to experience being the female in a relationship, sexually and emotionally. I want the romance, I want the trust that I can let go and know that I will be taken care of.

I am embarassed by these urges. Why? Because I am in no way passable. I have very big hips for a man and have always received insults and criticism for it. Now, I accept that I love having my ass played with, fingered, toyed so it's a mixed bag. I have a love/hate relationship with my ass. This is why I have a BIG praise fetish. I want, I crave a femme experience where I receive lots of positive encouragement to let the gurl out, to enjoy what feels good, to hear that I am sexy and wanted.

I want to be a good gurl but I also want to be a slut. I guess the sissy hypno is affecting me. When I was on cam, I had a few regulars. One of them called me a cockslut. That was so erotic. Not demeaning or mean but she could tell what I wanted. I want to be a good gurl for my fwb but every once in a while a cockslut but only for my fwb.

I have so many fantasies but I know that I won't realize them since I want to be discrete.

I would love to meet my fwb for lunch and everyone would think it was just two guys hanging out. If they listened to the conversation they would see that something was off. My fwb is really talking to the gurl inside, telling her how he missed her, how sexy she is, how he wants her, how she turns him on. He feeds me some edibles to get the rest of the day started. We then go to a lingerie store and my fwb shops for a few pieces he wants me to wear for him. We continue on to a toy shop where we find a new toy to play with. Once I'm super high, he takes care of me. Guiding me to the hotel. I follow his lead, trying on the clothes he picked out. Prancing for him, watching him get hard. We put on sissy hypno and watch it together as he can't keep his hands off me. The night continues with toys, fingered, ass play and we make each other happy.

Another one would be to go to a sex party with my fwb. I would wear a micro mini skirt that barely covers my huge ass. My fwb places his hand protectively around my waist as we walk and watch the proceedings. He allows some guys to pat and massage my ass. He gives me permission to suck a few cocks. More 420, the night progresses and we have a great time.

Just a few fantasies that I have thought up of.

I'm a total bottom. I love watching the feminization and bimbo hypnos. Not into pain or degredation, just romantic sensual fun. Looking for a safe space where I can trust in discretion and explore this part of me.