I always never feel 100% certain writing one of these. However, this is an avenue of exploration so here goes:

I am 47, male, stocky, brown hair and eyes and know that I have very strong submissive tendencies.

I would very much (if I am lucky enough) like to find a firm caring Mommy Domme to bond and bind myself towards.

I am not looking for a harsh Mistress type personality. I am not looking for degredation or humiliation. I have had far to many instances with an abusive and manipulative partner in the past.

Disclaimer I know intellectually that BDSM and a Dom/sub relationship is not one that stems from this type of negative relationship and traits. I know that to truly build a lasting pairing there has to be communication and understanding and trust, etc.

I just must prefer someone that can offer a cushion to my mind and body when needed so I can offer myself fully and completed should I find a Mommy Domme that I can be myself with.

Kinks, fetishes, desires that I find attractive and that I am drawn towards are not limited to:

loving/descriptive names and terms Breast worship and devotion motorboating and breast smothering bondage face sitting pegging estim play and electro toys hypnosis fantasy/play/exploration/videos edging (short term or prologued) cock milking (by hand or mechanical assistance) anal submission (hand, toy, mechanical assistance) sensory deprivation.. exploration of situations where a bi element may be introduced in fantasy or reality ... touch, oral, etc binding by rope or other means of various parts of me I am sure that there are more I would want to try and explore (either in chat, rp, fantasy, reality)

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limits/boundaries: under 18 play, blood, real pain, scat, abuse, harshness (by language, etc) I am not against that firm controlling guiding hand but I just cannot do the full court press of being held as a "thing" that I see i many Mistress/sub/toy relationships...

I guess I am not sure what to expect but I would love to discuss and get to know you and explore thoughts and ideas i this regards. I realize practicallity an online arraignment would be the most realistic to start but I am not against an eventual meet up or RL meeting if...IF something should come of this.

This is all still very new but something immensely eager to explore and see where this may go.....

Though not my real name, please, call me Matthew, it does hold a meaning to me and would be the start of a connection.