In my ongoing fight to recover, I’ve recently in the past two months (a) given up the hope my family wants to or is interested in my healing journey and (b) that I have to find my path without them. It’s been very painful and throughout this my partner has been very compassionate. However, it has also lead to nearly daily “mini episodes” (panic attacks) and frequent depression/disassociation. At the start it was all negative, but now it’s reversing to deep feelings of love for my partner. Anytime my emotions seem extreme he is quick to point it out and become guarded. He has a fear that my disassociation is loss of touch in reality and could lead to me harming him. It hurts to hear him say this because that is furthest from my mind in these situations. However, these intense emotions frighten me also. Looking for suggestions/similar stories.