Hey everyone,

I'm reaching out because I'm going through a tough time and could really use some support and understanding.

Recently, I've been grappling with a whirlwind of emotions after my therapy sessions. I reached out to my therapist via email to express my concerns, but I still can't shake this feeling of being confused and heartbroken.

In my email to my therapist, I poured out my heart about how I felt like I was being misled and manipulated during our sessions. One specific aspect that's been weighing heavily on me is the realization that my therapist was in an ongoing relationship with an ex-client until just recently. It's left me feeling incredibly hurt and confused, especially considering the depth of my feelings for my therapist.

I'm in deep limerence for her, and it's incredibly difficult for me to simply walk away. I'm working with another therapist simultaneously, but the pain and longing I feel for my therapist seem insurmountable at times. It's hard to reconcile the fact that an ex-client had the opportunity to be romantically involved with her, while I feel like I'm left on the sidelines, yearning for a chance that may never come.

I understand the boundaries that exist between therapist and client, but it's hard not to feel a sense of injustice and longing for what could have been. My therapist feels like the perfect woman for me, and the thought of her being out of reach is almost unbearable.

I'm not looking for advice to simply leave her; it's not that simple when emotions run so deep. Instead, I'm hoping to connect with others who may have experienced similar situations and can offer support and understanding.

Thank you for taking the time to read and understand.

^{Mods feel free to remove this post if it doesn't fit the sub. I have cPTSD and I have found people in this community to be supportive and understanding. I recently posted about a similar situation on r/talktherapy but was met with skepticism and didn't really have much of a nice experience there, so trying my luck over here.}

^{Note: This post has undergone rewriting and rephrasing with the assistance of A.I for clarity and coherence.}