I have made a lot of progress this year. I never thought that I would enjoy interacting with other people, but I’m starting to. I had a great time doing my job (with people) on Thursday and on Friday I really enjoyed spending time with my husband’s family. Also, I can tell I’m becoming more confident and competent, I’m making progress with healing my disordered eating. I’m sleeping at least 7 hours a night. My relationships are all better than they used to be.

The thing is, I’m having a hard time feeling comfortable and enjoying my success. On Friday, after I realized how well I’m doing, I had a flashback and didn’t sleep. I stopped doing all the good, goal-accomplishing, life-building stuff I was doing.

I feel torn between embracing recovery and regressing.

How did you guys get over this?