Most of people I see in cPTSD subs have had trauma because of either mental or physical abuse directed at them either by intent or neglect. That isn’t my story. 10 years ago my daughter was diagnosed with a terminal illness. There is no treatment and no cure. I have watched my vibrant little girl lose the ability to walk, talk, and so many other things. She eats through a tube in her belly. I have seen her body broken battered and bruised from falls during seizures . I have seen her vitals crash and her writhe in pain will doctors try to figure what’s wrong with her. I constantly live in fear and awake in the night terrified she will die. We signed a DNR because as afraid as I am of her death I am more afraid of dragging out her suffering. I am her father. I am supposed to protect her and I failed. I make medical decisions based on the least bad option. How can I expect my wife to love me if I can’t protect our family.

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