I'm disabled and dating has been a struggle for me most of my life; it was a source of constant, subtle bullying in my adolescence. My sexual expression was something I learned to be ashamed of and hide. Honestly, I wonder if the reason I get rejected so much is because of the wheelchair. I hold back my feelings with new people and potential dates because I'm that used to getting hurt, but also when I feel safe with someone I get attached too quickly. Is there a way I can make this stop? Why is this happening? What can I do to take care of myself? I am attracted to men most of the time, but I am also terrified of most of them.

Thanks for any advice, I'm really struggling with this.