my partner and i have been together almost 3 years, we live together and are extremely close. both have long histories of trauma and mental illness.

every time she leaves on a trip, i feel so alone and abandoned. her not being here, disrupts my routine so much more than i expect it to. and when she gets back it takes me days to feel fully comfortable around her again. even though i desperately wanted her to come back, when she does it’s like she’s a stranger, i feel scared and mistrusting and for no good reason. it’s like my body forgets who she is for a bit. meanwhile she’s super worn out and disoriented from the transition in environment and energy.

anyone else relate?