I understand shame to be the belief "I am bad" as opposed to guild "I have done something bad"

I feel guilt.

I believe that I'm bad/worthless/unloveable, but there isn't an emotion with that. It's right up there with I have grey hair, brown eyes, and am 40 pounds overweight. (Truthfully I feel *some* shame over being overweight, but not the first 3)

So: Can I be in denial about what the bad/worthless etc emotions are?

How do I fix this when I can't find it?

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Part of this comes from a religious upbringing where as part of our daily prayers said,

"I have done those things which I ought not to have done, and have not done those things that I ought to have done, and there is no health in us" That is, "you are despicable dirt just like everyone else" became like water to a fish.